Looking forward

You deleted me from facebook. 
I did the same on messenger. 
We no longer email or text. 
We don't talk.

I miss you, 
But then I don't. 
Memories of you appear, 
Suddenly.
Unbidden. 
And I smile, fondly. 
I yearn to reach out.
Yearn to talk. 
Yearn to learn you, 
All over again.

But then I stop.
And think.
Of how much I've grown, 
Away from you. 
A challenge I thought, 
Impossible.

And I realise, 
No, remember, 
Why we have to go through this, 
I remember why this is
Necessary.

We still have so much
Growing up to do.
We'll meet up someday, 
Of this I'm sure.

We'll meet up,
As equals.
Climbing side-by-side,
Once again.

I can't wait.

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