I can feel again.

So much has changed,
And yet,
Not enough.

I knew you loved me.
I also knew you held back.
And I let you.

I let you.

Because I didn't know what else to do.

I was so busy chasing after.. everything.
And anything.
To avoid thinking.
Avoid reflecting.
Avoid bringing up,
This love between us.
The love we both felt.
Strongly.
But,

Differently.

For so long, I didn't know who I was
Without you.
I still don't know.
It took me so long to start climbing.
Again.
On my own.
And I still don't know.

But I'm learning.

We were both at fault in this.
All of this.
So much past hurt.
It bled into our present.
And our future.

We had to stop.
The pain was too much.
Too much.
Especially considering how much
We loved each other.
Love each other.

So much has changed.
But not that.

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